Michelle Buckley

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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

My Dog Ate My Computer (Excuse #21 for not blogging)

Okay -- I can hear you breath a collective, "well dadgum, it's about time..."
I've not placed a post on my blog in a minute (ok -- nearly two weeks or approximately 17,279 minutes :-) but I've been working on book #2, and the way I see it ... better late than never ... I promise in the future I'll try, try, try to do better!!!! Now that's it for the mea culpa ... let today's posting begin ...


I don't watch much reality tv, but on Tuesday nights I do watch NBC's, The Biggest Loser. Anybody out there watch it?

Anyway, the episode from October 18th has stayed with me awhile. During the show, I could literally feel America's collective hearts break for "ex athlete" Matt, a former NCAA championship wrestler who has been struggling with weight issues for awhile.

During the episode, Matt worked his butt off trying to lose weight by increasing his exercise. But as he BURNED OFF more calories through strength training and cardio, he offset it by TAKING IN more calories -- the result of giving into late night snack attacks.

I've been there. It's called self-sabatoge.

And whether it pertains to losing weight, handling relationship issues, pursuing a dream or anything else, I'll bet many of you have been darn near swallowed up whole by the self-sabatoge monster.

Be honest. Ever done it? Ever sabatoge yourself?

Anyway, when it came time for the weigh in, Matt lost a big fat ZERO pounds. This was from a man that had previously had several weeks of double digit weight loss. Matt was so upset he literally had to leave the building. I could feel his pain through the tv.

Again...been there.

Have you ever wanted something so bad and tried so hard to obtain it, only to be left with a door slammed in your face? You know, to the point where it left a doorknob imprint? Be it a job, relationship, dream home .... whatever, we don't always get what we want, no matter how hard we try. That's just life, it's not always what we expect. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't try...right? Heck the less progress we see, the harder we should try...right?

Is the motto: 'if at first you don't succeed..try, try again' ever just BS? At what point should you give up? When should you stop trying? They say that 'failure is just a sign of God telling you you're headed in the wrong direction.' But how does one define failure as opposed to just not trying hard enough?

I consider myself a tenacious, persistent person and I've written what I think is a great never-told-before-on-film screenplay about the Buffalo Soldiers, but I've gotten absolutely nowhere as far as interest by deal makers & breakers in Hollywood. I've been at it for awhile now and I'm wondering is it time to just give up?

Like Matt, I'm sure I'll be back next week, pushing myself, giving it my all, trying to reach another goal...realize another dream...

But dang...really...at what point should I just be honest with myself, admit this may not be God's plan for me and just stop trying?

What advice do you have for determining when enough is enough?

Back to The Biggest Loser ... Kudos to Pete Thomas, the only black man on the show who was voted off the October 25th episode! He started at 401 pounds and lost an amazing 140 pounds and is featured in the current issue of PEOPLE MAGAZINE looking pretty darn good! Congrats to Pete for holding it down and reaching his goal by embracing a healthier lifestyle! His CAN-DO attitude and his "I may be out, but I'm not OUT-out" spirit is something we should all embrace and aspire to.
Blogger OptyMyst said...

been there too, michelle, and am still there. i will hold your virtual hand when you are back next week, giving it your all.

never give up; just let it simmer on the back burner sometimes.

6:27 PM, November 02, 2005  
Blogger Michelle said...

Optymist -- thanks for the encouraging words. I know me. Next week, I'll be right back at it, but I'll watch out for the doorknobs. Keep your head up too and remember one of my favorite sayings: "You can't win, if you don't play." (If I don't watch it, soon I'm gonna have to pay the Lotto royalties for using their motto so much.) Be blessed.

6:41 PM, November 02, 2005  
Blogger OptyMyst said...

LOL - nahhh, just remember fox's claim to "fair and balanced." also, you just gave them due credit with your disclaimer. hehe.

i linked to you. i hope it brings some folks here to buy your book.

4:19 AM, November 03, 2005  
Blogger T`bou said...

OMG Pete Thomas lost that much weight? Now he's my example I can do it yes I can. I watched bits and pieces of the show not enough to know whats going on week after week but congrats. to Pete

I can do it
I can do it

7:57 AM, November 03, 2005  
Blogger ByeBye said...

can I hold your other hand??? I won't let go in virtual land. (now watch folks read way into that statement and I will get a few emails about it naww not since I pointed it out) but I'm alway waiting and reading what you have to say...

right now I don't know what I can do but cause some disharmony to others in my own selfless way...is selfless a word? Oh well hots off to Pete, thats a lot of weight to unload.

12:22 PM, November 03, 2005  
Blogger Dr. Deborah Serani said...

I *have* been waiting. So glad you posted. I come by almost everyday to see where you are?????

I've been there too...lost my momentum and then find it again. I think that the process of it all.

And selfless is a word...and a good one at that!

Peace to all,

1:40 PM, November 03, 2005  
Blogger Michelle said...

T'bou - I can do it if I try, V-I-C-T-O-R-Y had to be Pete's motto! He's a walking, talking, calorie-burning testament to the fact that anything is possible, if you put your mind to it!

E - Hats, gloves, shoes and everything else off to Pete. He lost a whole person. LOL. BTW--seems like you had a bit to unload yourself. You can hold my hand in virtual land or anywhere else, any time. A wise man I know, always says ... Be blessed. Don't stress. Allow God to handle the mess.

Remember that.

Dr. Serani -- you're my psych idol. I visit your blog nearly everyday too. I'm really fascinated by the VR technology when it comes to treating phobias. Amazing. Also, I put it on your blog, I'm gonna look for the October magazine you were featured in at our local library. And I'm gonna keep my eyes peeled for the Oct. 1 L&O - SUV rerun that you advised on. You're a cerebral celebrity! You go!

Thanks for visiting me again. I'll find my blogging rhythm eventually. I have a feeling I will never be an everyday blogger but two days a week (probably Tuesdays & Thursdays) feels right. So be patient with me.

2:58 PM, November 03, 2005  

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